Back to Troy for the semester. What a change of heart since last semester. I could go on for hours just how God has worked in my heart. What I'm most thankful for that God- Creator of everything we see around us loves us? WHAT!?!? That is amazing. He would love little ole Darin. Can't understand, but am thankful for that. I'm going into way too much, and if you've read the title of this post "I Tired" you're probably thinking that I have not mentioned anything about trying. But it sets the stage to what I'm about to write. Here we go..
Tonight, we had Crossroads. It's through Campus Outreach here at Troy. We discuss spiritual issues that college students face and the reality that our years in college will set the stage to what will come forth later on in life i.e decisions we make, what path we choose etc... But in other words, it's a laid back place to come in; listen and talk with "normal" people about life. Great time all around. Love the leaders and the students who are involved. Tonight really rocked my world. We had a man by the name of Tim come in and talk to us. He has been endowed with a gift of evangelism. And he is mighty good at it. God has blessed us with his gift here at Troy. He brought the message home tonight and hit me to the core. He gave a powerful word and as he stood up there, within the first 30 seconds he stood there and said, "What I am about to tell you, will be offensive to some of you and I'm sorry for that." Powerful words, his boldness in saying that was intense. As he worked his way through his talk he said:
- If you were to die and stand in front of God and He asked you, " Why should I allow you in My Kingdom"? What would you respond with.
- On a scale from 1-10, what is your assurance that you will be allowed to enter the gates of Heaven.
Here's where the "I tired" part comes in. I answered the first question with Lord, I tried my best and gave it my all, I slipped up a lot and dropped the ball many times so to say.
Tim went on to say that you can keep saying I'll do better and keep getting better. Eventually there will be a point where you gave it your best.
"All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags."
I Sat there and it hit me like a brick, If I say God I tired my hardest and labored for you till I could not anymore, that is all but filthy rags. My perspective of what I was doing was wrong. Trying to work for God's love and his favor doesn't work.
- "For it is by grace you have been saved- and this is not from yourselves, it is a gift of God- not by works, so that no one can boast"- Ephesians 2:9
There is only one way to become clean in God's eyes. This way was stretched out on a cross, beaten by the fits of man, sheared by whips and nailed through His hands and feet. The blood of Christ is the only way to be seen clean in God's eyes. Wow! What a great thing God showed me while sitting in that chair hearing this.
I will try and continue you to keep up with this blog, as with every college student in the world, we just get caught up doing other things and are busy.
You stay classy world